April 8, 2009
Some write about love or the feelings of pain
always trying to improve but never having any gain
they think about things that matter not to themselves
but wonder, out of curiousity, should i be more like someone else
thinking can cause madness , looking the same
wondering what made me so different and yet we've both been here in the same way
I look at him sleeping as he is so peaceful in his rest
and i wonder if i'll ever be wearing the magical dress..
some laugh and say nonsense, myself once i think
but when i see him i notice that he really makes me me
he sees the person i can be, who i have been and who i am
he loves me regardless and knows i'm just sam
not some magical like figure who can take away the pain
or a supermodel girlfriend- just there for one date
i'm not even his best friend though i consider him mine
i'm just the girl that loves him and will always be by his side
demons or chaos... i care not what comes
just to know him and to love him is enough for this one
i dont know if it will happen or when or if it should
but i know that i would say yes if i ever even could
i think of him constantly like the words on a paper
never fading or dwindling , only making more sense by the pages
i turn one by one and look back on my life
and i cant remember a time when i ever wanted to be someones wife
but with him it feels different though i'm scared out of my head
i just know that we're perfect
like butter on warm bread
he melts my heart and i can't think sometimes when he is near
he makes me smile, makes me giggly.. makes me feel just so real
i could write and think forever of all the ways that i care
but i'll stop just for a moment to say i'll always be there
there will be good times , even bad times, even times we dont know
but i know that i'll be here as long as you never go